26.2.06

I'm on a "i'm a bad mommy" kick. Violet is now asking to watch movies all the time, which makes my skin crawl. Essentially because I want TV to be a very minor part of her life. Especially this little. And its my fault. She isn't getting the stimulation she needs, and she's gonna get it from TV. She's sleeping pretty poorly because we keep handing a cold around, which doesn't help my mental attitude. Did I mention I live in the STICKS? If I want to do ANYTHING I have to drive to Columbia. I haven't been doing her reading, her bits (kind of like flashcards), her math. Nothin. And she's bored stiff and is letting me know. The fact that I can't get rid of her eczema is making me bonkers. I'm going to do a hardcore elimination diet and hope it isn't the raw goat milk, since my pregnant body can not produce enough milk to sustain a toddler without some supplementation. And I'm not giving her phytoestrogen hell soy milk. Sigh. So I'll probably eliminate gluten and see how that goes. I need to be around other mothers with similar mindsets. Needless to say, the military is not rife with sling wearing, no vaxing, extended breastfeeding, liberal mothers. Someone at playgroup was talking to me about bottles. I didn't exactly know what to add to the conversation, so I responded with "I don't really know, she never had bottles." They looked at me like I grew a third head. They honestly had no idea how I fed her. I certainly don't have a problem with bottles, we just never used them. I feel like a frigging martian. Ok. I'm done.

7 rubber neckers:

Ayn Marie said...

wow...seriously, we must be drinking the same water or something...hmm, is that possible?? I've stopped turning the t.v. on during the day, but I jump on the computer WAY too much. that is my biggest downfall. even right now, I should be playing with her and I'm not. ok. I am turning off the computer for the night people. it's story time. :)

PAgirly said...

sheesh. we're like the exact opposite. i feel like a martian around breastfeeding women. i tried it, so i guess at least i have some idea. are you going to attempt to give v a bottle anytime soon or is she just ready for a sippy cup? i'm going to try harder the next time around to breastfeed. hopefully the situation will be a better one.

sweetviolet said...

ayn- i'm sure we'll have similar problems for some time to come!

pa- oh v uses cups. she just skipped the bottle and went to the cup. i had a horrible horrible start to the nursing with v in the NICU. i know how hard it is. i think that's why i'm so hardcore about normalizing it. women have babies now having never seen anyone breastfeed. i had no idea what to expect other than what a book could tell me...which doesn't help much while the baby is screaming and your boob is hanging out.

ChiroMum said...

SV...you need to move back to Cola! Esp by October when I have a feeling that I'm going to be extra needy for like-minded moms...Want me to kick out the FIL and give you the In-law suite??? BeeBabe is ALL for that idea (although I'm not so sure Violet would like that too much...).

sweetviolet said...

we would be more than happy to take over crazy duties at the chiro household. violet would say "eep...don't hug me!"

Christine said...

I've had the weird looks. You should have seen the faces when people found out I induced lactation to nurse my adopted black child! ha!

sweetviolet said...

that's FANTASTIC! the lengths people go to to nurse their children....induction, sns systems, fenugreek, oatmeal, etc etc amazes me. good mama.

 

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